This is Where I'm At
As a serial excuse maker and a wannabe perfectionist, being comfortable with where I am at is easier said than done. Where I am currently at, is certainly not where I thought I would be! And owning that, has been hard.
But, I am learning to slow down, to love myself anyway, and to care less about what others think. THAT, is probably the hardest part, right there - I have been well-programed to people-please! I should probably go to people-pleasers anonymous! 😘 But, I have heard from older (or more centered) friends, that there is such great freedom on the other side of people-pleasing, that I stay in the game and I choose to believe that it's possible for me, too. What other choice do I have, really?🤔😉
So, I guess that this singing-at-an-open-mic-night thing is part of working towards that. I have carried a lot more show nerves into the podcast interviews and the video making for my courses than I thought I would. I thought it would be EASY! But, it has NOT been comfortable. This is part of getting over that. AND, I think it will be FUN! Right? I sure hope so! I have always loved the idea of singing with others - time to see what it takes …
Verdon Vaillancourt knows what it takes! I just came back from practicing with Vern. Turns out I am no natural!😬 I fumbled and stumbled and stretched my voice and cringed into the microphone. But the good news is that Vern doesn't believe in the concept of someone being 'a natural'. He claims that it is all a matter of putting in the time and practice, and I am with him on that one!
As a rider, I was declared a 'natural' talent, because I rode well at a young age and seemed to have something innate that we in the horse industry call 'feel'. But my whole reason for being right now, is dispelling that myth.